Eventually, all the pieces fall into place… Until then, laugh at the confusion, live for the moment… and know that everything happens for a reason.
I haven’t been writing much personal entries lately because I’ve decided that for my own sake, it was better to segregate my life and while I know that since I started my blog, I would usually inject random life lessons and experiences into the outfit I am wearing, but i’ve been more detached recently. I am understanding how to be more careful and discerning with what I post about myself. More so, I’ve not had much time to introspect, really but I guess when you turn a year older (and hopefully, wiser…), there would be no better time than now.
Now if you really know me and have been following my blog, you would know that I rarely smile in the photos on my posts. Celyn always makes me want to smile when we take photos and I say, “I’m smiling on the inside…” or that “My eyes are smiling… is that not enough?” Of course, she would agree and then take snapshots of me with what qualifies as smiling in my dictionary. However, on the day that we were taking these shots, I was feeling happier than usual and could not just tone it down when it was time to shoot. The thing you need to know is that while I pose my heart out and act out glam, fabuluxe and fierce in street style entries… that’s actually not me 24/7, 100% of the time. I am actually more playful and a lot of people don’t really know that about me but I simply could not contain my happiness that it showed in the series of the shots taken. These photos were taken very close to my birthday and… I smiled, ear to ear…with teeth. Why? Well because there’s so many things to smile about. I feel like I live a very charmed life and to be truthful, despite everything I feel I have gone through and am going through… I consider myself blessed.
I know I have some kind of this thing…like a birthday curse or something…where bad things happen right around my birthday… (I spent about 4 birthdays in the hospital already…but who’s counting…haha), which is why when I get to celebrate a birthday with my loved ones, even if it is the most simple one, I consider myself the luckiest person in the world. I think every birthday is in itself a blessing. This year, I am finding that there are so many things around me to be joyful and blissfully happy about. It doesn’t need to be something grand or expensive or ultimately life changing… it can be the most mundane thing, actually it’s the little things I think that matter most in the grander scheme of things, and I find myself to be absolutely content and happy, even. Then I smile.
On that note, I would like to thank everyone who greeted me for my birthday… I know I have not been able to reply to every greeting one by one because I am simply overwhelmed with everything! Thank you for your lovely compliments, posts and well wishes… you have no idea how special you have all made this day for me. All my love!
x,J
Coordinates by Lola and Daisies | Shoes by SUITEBLANCO | Accessories: Pretty Little Blings